For me right now depression looks like a few things.
It looks like getting out of bed only to get back in it.
It looks like looking of pictures of friends while laying on the tatami crying.
It looks like being hungry but not having the energy to get up and get food.
It looks like a staring into the water during long shower but being unable to wash anything until a second before getting out.
It looks like making Endymion say goodbye to me because I can’t get out of bed.
It looks like thinking of messages to send to people but not actually sending them.
It looks like trying to make plans but not actually making them.
It looks like turning off all the lights and laying in the dark.
It looks like tears welling up for no discernible reason.
It looks like 100 things to do and only getting one of them done.
It looks like literally putting tasks in front of my face only to ignore them.
It looks like staring at a bottle of alcohol on Amazon for a long time and not caring about whether I can afford it.
It looks like taking forever to write this blog.
Thank the PTB that the anxiety is mostly at bay at the moment.
I can relate to many of these all too well. I hope you find what you need to get out of the place you’re in. Just because you’re there now, doesn’t mean you always have to be ❤
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Thank you. I don’t like being stuck here either. I’d be happy to leave.
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It’s hard because you get stuck in a rut. That place becomes your home and then you don’t know how to move out. It took me two years to get out of that place after being there for 17. It can be done. It’s not easy, it’s uncomfortable, and it takes consistency but you can do it.
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