Oh how much changes in almost a year.  Someone reminded me that I had written a post about Chrissy Teigan.  It was almost a year ago I wrote that post.  We had just started TTC.  I was hopeful, wildly optimistic and then not yet diagnosed as infertile.  At that time I was happy for Teigan and Legend.  This is a stark contrast to the false happiness I feel for Bey and Jay-Z upon yesterday’s twin announcement.  What an awful monster infertility is.  I don’t want to feel like this (just like I don’t want to feel depressed and have anxiety).  In fact, if we’re talking about feelings I don’t want right now, I have a whole list off the top of my head that can just go.

This morning someone posted this on Facebook, and I really loved it a lot.  In fact it inspired me to draw my own comic.  I don’t know if I can keep it up because I suck at stuff like that.

Anyway…here’s something I did last year and I’ll put what I did today in a new post.  I signed this, so don’t steal my shit.

There.  That’s me.  Totally what I look like.  Surprised?  Want more comics?

Friday brings no job offers, nothing to apply for and no other good news.  In fact, they failed to pay me for work I did in the US and I’m trying to fight that out so I can buy some glasses.  Also, today brings still no contact from Motoki and I am quite worried about him.  I sent him the above link about depression and anxiety.  I hope that showed him I’m thinking about him and I’m concerned.  Later today brings yoga.  I hope I can power through that as I’m in a lot of physical pain (old injury).

That’s all for now.  I might go back to bed.  I want to finish reading Hard Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World today.  I have dishes to do and the trash to take out but I’m not interested in either of those things.  I also have to edit something for お父さん and I don’t want to do that either.  Sigh.  Stuff.  Ugh.