Normally my depression is pretty manageable but if you want to see me go from pretty okay to shit show throw a MC in there.

Here’s how my depression manifests in the wake of a MC:

• Sunken eyes surrounded by dark circles
• No smiles
• Raging headaches
• Lying in bed most of the day watching TV
• Napping (something I normally don’t do)
• Being unable to cook for myself (something I love to do)
• Eating a lot (A LOT) of shit
  jelly beans
  potato chips (there are at least 5 kinds in the house right now)
  pickles
• Not commenting on other people’s SNS posts, not sending or replying to messages
• Zoning out
• Not wearing anything besides jammies (even to leave the house)
• But rarely leaving the house
• Which leads to failing to walk the dog (but she seems unfazed)
• Crying (almost every time I hug Mamoru)
• Having little interest in things I love (reading, drawing, cooking, etc.)
• No energy

I think that’s it.  It’s still a pretty extensive list.  I can’t wait until Monday.  After that I can heal (mentally and physically) and try to pick up the pieces this MC left behind, so I can move on.

I hope your week is going better than mine.  Be well.