Adoption · Life · Mental Health · Miscarriage

What plan?

Yesterday’s doctors appointment didn’t go as planned.  Ha ha did anything involving this pregnancy and MC ever go according to plan?  That would be a hearty “no”, ladies and gentlemen.  Basically there are still remnants of the egg sack in my uterus, so I’ve been prescribed some new drugs to help push everything out.  One of the drugs causes contractions which is basically like periodic much more painful cramps, and the other drug the doctor said would give me diarrhea.  Great.  Last night I moaned around in pain, and then when it was bedtime I couldn’t fall asleep, of course.  Fitbit says I went to bed after midnight despite getting into bed at 10PM.  So now I’m spotting again.  Yay.  Also, the results from the why of MC haven’t come back yet.  The doctor says I have to wait two more weeks and return for the results.  It’s never ending is it?

Today I hemmed and hung the inner curtains.  I mentioned that here.  With the new outer curtains we bought they look pretty good, and it’s noticeably warmer in there.


I hope our future child likes dolphins.  Cute right?

After that I went to a large nearby station.  I bought some cute succulents and a toy for Mamoru’s friend’s son.  In a couple weeks we are going to a large city not too far from here for an adoption seminar with another NPO.  Since Mamoru’s friend lives there, we will meet him and his family for lunch.  We booked a nice hotel (since it’s only one night) which has a sento and a pool (that I hope I can use) plus a lovely buffet.  It’ll be like a mini vacay.

When I got home from the store, I found that Small Lady had made a huge mess.  She poo’d on the floor.  I went to cleaning it up, but I didn’t have my glasses on, so I stepped in the poo.  I had a legit breakdown at that moment, screaming and crying.  I’m sure this wasn’t due entirely to the poo mess (and the subsequently ruined slippers).  I’m so tired of this MC.  It’s over; I’m done.  I don’t want to take any more medicine.  I don’t want to be in pain still.  Moreover, I didn’t want to be in pain and then have to go back out to buy a new pair of slippers after I had already been at the store where we buy our slippers not just yesterday but today too.  Once I finished crying, I ate lunch, but I didn’t want to.  Not only does this medicine make me sick but it also makes me feel like I don’t want to eat.  However, I have to take this medicine with food.  Lose/lose situation there.

I went back out again, bought the slippers and promptly returned home, set up the plants, did the dishes, tidied up, put the laundry in the washer, and finally took a shower.  I’m now lying in bed and don’t intend to leave here the rest of the night.

Tomorrow afternoon is our first home visit.  Wish us luck!

4 thoughts on “What plan?

  1. I’m so sorry you are STILL going through this.
    By the way, I’ve been wondering… do you have any idea when you’ll have the results from the tests they were doing to find out why the miscarriage happened?

    The curtains are stunning. I hope the home visit goes well.


    1. Thanks but I can’t take credit for the dolphins as we purchased them like that. I only stitched up the inner curtains which are boring silver things meant to keep heat and cold out.


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