Forgive my absence. I’ve been ill. Quite ill. For 9 fucking days. On Wednesday night after the show, I lost my voice. On Thursday I went to Company H but could barely speak, and my job relies heavily on speaking. I canceled all my freelance work and whispered my way through the day eager to leave. On Friday, despite my better judgment I mulled my way through karaoke attempting to talk to people, but by the end of the night I couldn’t talk at all which Rei thought was hilarious. Saturday and Sunday were bedridden with little appetite. Monday was equally as bad and I told Company H I wouldn’t be in this week. By Tuesday I was begging Mamoru to take me to the doctor even though I have zero faith in Japanese medicine. I left the doctor with 5 different medicines not having much faith any one of them would help. I got a little better after that despite the cabin fever and the complete lack of energy. I spent the week lying in bed or on the sofa and watching a fuckton of TV. I couldn’t read. I couldn’t write. I couldn’t do much of anything. While I’ve gotten my voice back, I haven’t been able to sleep through the night without waking up coughing multiple times despite having 2 cough medicines. I’d kill for some American OTC drugs right now. Why is Japanese medicine so fucking weak?!?!
Mamoru has done a little. He took me to the doctor and translated that experience for me since I could barely speak English let alone Japanese. He did the dishes every day except last night. Mostly he’s ignored me and slept of the sofa at my insistence since I don’t want him to get sick, and I’m coughing all night anyway which would keep him up. However, I think he may be immune to whatever shit I always seem to stumble onto because last time I got this sick (when I was pregnant), he didn’t catch it either. I thought it might be the flu again. I think I may have had a fever on Wednesday night as I was sweating and chilled all night, but I might have broken it with Advil. Thank god for Advil am I right? You can’t buy it in Japan but keep it heavily stocked. I’m thinking that when I visit my family in August that I should also stock up on Dayquil/Nyquil as well. Of course, if I have it I probably won’t need it. That’s always how these things work.
This is the second time in 6 months that I’ve been horribly ill. That’s too much for my perfect track record. Prior to the January flu, I hadn’t been this sick in ages. Why does this keep happening?!?! I hate this feeling of weakness, of being unable to do shit, of being confined in my house, and worse confined to the bed. I haven’t been riding my bike. I haven’t been outside much. Cabin fever is the worst.
This week I worked all my freelance jobs since I needed the money and also since 海の日 collectively fucks me out of my paycheck for an extra day. I was okay on Wednesday (talking very little) but on Thursday night I broke out into a coughing fit in the middle of my freelance gig so much so that the boss walked in and was like 大丈夫？ (Are you okay?). Today Mamoru dug out some cough medicine from when he was sick. I downed two this morning, and they appear to be working. I’ve got to run to the post office today and then I have a freelance meeting later, and I’m working karaoke. I took a literal handful of pills this morning. Doctor prescribed, Mamoru prescribed, Usagi prescribed and vitamins. I’m not sure about my risk for overdose (because Japanese medicine amirite?) but I am buzzing a little right now.
Anyway, I’ve got to go. It’s stopped raining so I’ll take Small Lady out and then get on with the rest of my day. I hope I get well soon and I also hope you are well.