Hi. I’m a good 85% – 87% better. I still have a sore throat at times, a cough that just won’t fucking quit, and mild congestion. But I’m getting better. At least I hope so.
In other news starting yesterday depression and anxiety decided to tell me how much I suck and how much everyone hates me. I’m seriously sitting in bed right now trying not to cry because if I did, I couldn’t explain to Mamoru why I was crying, and he understands depression so little that the explanation of “I don’t know” wouldn’t be sufficient enough for him. I wish I could name these feelings. Would that make them easier to stop? Who knows?
I’m started back at Company H today after a week long absence. Luckily today was a bit of a slow day, and I texted and read in the down time. That’s the best thing about my job. In the down time I can do whatever the fuck I want. I definitely can’t complain about that.
Nothing else is new really. Rei is going to Korea for a long time so I won’t get to see her much before I go to America. Part of the depression maybe? Who knows?
I hope you’re having better days. Be well.