Is it possible Mamoru has been so all over my ass about cheating because he’s projecting? Is it possible he’s cheating on me? I don’t know. I have no proof, but something a little off happened today. So Mamoru took a picture of me in my underwear, and I told him to delete it (mostly because it was from an unflattering angle and made me look fat). Because he took it on his iPad, and I know how Apple products work I wanted to make sure it was not only deleted but also deleted from the Recently Deleted folder. When I told him to click on that folder there were 4 other photos in there (one of which looked exactly like an ass but I couldn’t make out the other 3). He quickly picked his iPad off the table and turned it to face him while he deleted these photos. When I asked him if he had certainly deleted my ugly photo, he showed me the Recently Deleted album was empty meaning whatever those 4 photos were of I’ll never know because they are gone now. I never mentioned seeing an ass.
Further suspicion was aroused when we try to have sex these days. I say try because as he can totally get it up, he can’t finish the deed. This has occurred the last two times we’ve done it. I don’t really know what this means, but Mamoru usually finishes. The only times he didn’t were when he felt too pressured TTC. Obviously, we’re not TTC now, so there’s no pressure. I don’t know. It could be because he’s getting older. Or maybe he’s cumming for someone else. I honestly don’t know.
Is it terrible to say I wish he was cheating on me because then he could leave me the fuck alone with these cheating accusations. Of course, it probably wouldn’t happen that way especially if he’s projecting.
I don’t know what to think. I’m pretty clear that was an ass though. I know what asses look like. What are your thoughts here?