I’m currently in a hell of my own creation which has occurred due to my decisions. I know this. However, I acted on impulse, and so here were are. Can’t change the past.
Let me back up. See I’ve been feeding these stray cats who live under the train tracks near Company H for maybe a year now. They’re all grown cats, and I’ve not seen kittens there since I first started working at Company H. Today while feeding these cats, a kitten made its way to the place where I feed them. The mother was nowhere and the other cats were bullying it, so on impulse I stuffed it in my jacket and took it home. I didn’t ask Mamoru about this because I knew he would probably say no. Since this was an impulse decision, I had no plan whatsoever, but I decided I would take it to the doctor and then find it a home if it’s healthy. Upon talking to Yumiko (self-proclaimed kitten expert) she said it probably had parasites and/or fleas. She gave me some symptoms of parasites which seem to fit the kitten. Overwhelmed with anxiety at this point I caved and called Mamoru. He was furious. Mostly because I didn’t involve him in the decision to bring to kitten home and because of that he had no desire to help me. In fact, he was flat out angry because he felt he HAD to help me. I didn’t understand any of this. I thought I was doing a good thing, rescuing a kitten, trying to help a kitten. Meanwhile, all Mamoru saw was my poor decision making skills. He said I interfered with cat society and my behavior was childlike. I told him he didn’t have to help me. Yumiko (no help with the cat since she doesn’t speak Japanese) set to texting everyone she knows in this area seeing if anyone could take the cat. I had trouble reaching Demande at first but after I did he said he couldn’t get up that early (yes, really) and my husband should help me (if only it were so easy). Finally, I got a hold of Rei (now in Korea) and she said she’d set an alarm and absolutely help me translate via phone. Both Rei and Yumiko think I did a good thing. Demande doesn’t understand why I would pick up a kitten I didn’t intend to keep, and Mamoru thinks I’m a fucking idiot. So I guess the jury’s still out on whether or not I did a good thing. Now I’m physically and mentally exhausted from all the crying I’ve been doing and all the anxiety I literally caused myself. In hindsight I probably should have just left the kitten there, but it’s too late to correct that mistake. So I’ll move forward and take it to the doctor and hope everything is okay. I have to go to sleep since I’m now braindead. If you have anything to say about this, please leave a comment. Positive or negative it doesn’t matter as I’ve heard it all. Be well because I can’t.