After ignoring my texts since yesterday evening I finally got a strange message from Demande about an hour ago. He said he needed space. Great. Classic Demande strikes again. I couldn’t wrap my head around why. He also said I was too fragile, and then it clicked. The other night when I was talking to him I was sniffling because I’m sick (and had also biked a lot in the cold that night). He asked if I was crying and I said I wasn’t. After he sent that weird message, I said via text that I wanted to talk to him on the phone, and I could explain things better that way. After that I said that if he still wanted space, I would respect his wishes. The reason I wanted to talk to him on the phone was so that he could hear my voice and how fucking sick it sounds. Then he would understand that I wasn’t (as I had said) crying the other night. Of course, those messages got no response and that was over an hour ago.
Yumiko said he’s a bad friend, and I’m better off without him. I know some of my seasoned readers would agree. Something like this has happened before. Basically Demande dropped off the planet when his cat died, but he wouldn’t tell me why he did this until after the fact. I suppose it will be another situation like this. Or perhaps our friendship is over again. I hope that’s not the case. I just got him back.
I’m not well. I am not well right now. I don’t have time to cry because Mamoru will be home any minute. Please be well. I can’t but I hope you can.