An Incomplete Girl in a Japanese World
I’m a 37 year old America woman, and I have been married to a wonderful Japanese man (who is 39) since 2014. We currently reside in Japan. We both love food (especially awesome buffets), and we live for travel.
I started this blog in early 2016 because we decided we would try to start our family, and I was overwhelmed with emotions I had no outlet for. We started TTC using FAM (Fertility Awareness Method). I stopped taking birth control pills and will never be on them again. You can read about FAM basics on Kindara. They also have a great tracking app and a super supportive community. The good news is that I got pregnant within the first six months of TTC. The bad news is that I lost the baby before I could even get to the doctor. From July to November (2016), I experienced a 132 day cycle. I saw a doctor in the US in November 2016 who diagnosed me with PCOS and said my only hope of having a baby would be to start immediately with IVF.
I have great fears of injecting ungodly amounts of chemicals into my body, so I told my husband I would prefer to adopt. Right now we haven’t sworn off on TTC ourselves either with our without the help of doctors. To be honest 2016 was a really difficult year, and I fell into despair over never having a family with the man I love more than anything. However, we’re not ready to give up yet.
Initially, this blog started as a place for me to write about all the ups and downs that come with TTC. The more I wrote, the more the blog evolved. It became a place for me to write about not only the struggles of TTC but the daily struggles of someone with depression and mild anxiety. It became a place for me to share a little bit of my Japan with you.
My blog became a place to talk about the wonderful relationships I’ve developed with people not only in Japan but also around the world. It became a place to remind myself that I have been lucky in life to have made friends with some of the best of the best.
Also, this blog became a place to help me figure out who I am, who I’ll become, and what will make me happiest in the future. See I strongly believe that every person in this world in an incomplete person. Perhaps we’ll never be fully complete people because the universe is constantly introducing us to people who make our lives worthwhile. I’m okay with that especially if I’m not done meeting people who will change my life in exciting and amazing and even frightening ways. Mostly, that’s where the title of this blog comes from (and from this post).
Thank you for stopping by to share in my journey. I appreciate your support, your likes, your comments, and whatever else you do here.