Mamoru is watching some Japanese TV show, and I poked my head in there to see what the fuck was going on. I thought he was watching anime because this absolute girl child voice was screaming in a pitch that I didn’t think was possible for humans to hear. Turns out it’s a regular TV… Continue reading I got my hair cut and I hate Japanese TV…
I’m barely holding it together. I don’t need to hold it together though. I’m at home. I’m alone. I can let the tears flow freely. I’m sure it will happen while I’m typing this out. Here we go. I’m garbage at Japanese. It’s true. A little over 5 years here and I’m total garbage at… Continue reading Japanese and friends…
The scale hit 63.7kg today. That’s 140 pounds. Holy shit I can’t tell you the last time I remember weighing 140 pounds. It was before I moved to Japan, I’ll tell you that. On Facebook the memories come up daily, and I look at old pictures of myself either on FB itself or on my… Continue reading More on the weight loss…
It’s nearing 5AM in Japan, and it’s raining. I’ve arrived home a little after 7PM. Yesterday upon getting my massive bags up 3 flights of stairs, I immediately dropped to the ground and hugged the ever lovin’ crap outta Small Lady. I’m not sure when Mamoru got home but I was well in dreamland at… Continue reading Back to life…
I wish I were so beautiful that everyone adored me. One look at me and people would be dying to come talk to me. They would ask about my interests. They would be hell bent on finding something in common with me (even the tiniest of things) to stay in my presence longer as those… Continue reading Fantasies…
Holy shit I haven’t written a blog in a while. I’m sorry about that. Life has got me wrapped up in it’s wave of damn near everything and I’ve only been home to eat or sleep. This life is for the birds! I’ve taken on another freelance client (Gurio) which doesn’t fill the gaping money… Continue reading Mega long crazy update…
I’m currently in the midst of a huge low caused by depression and anxiety but mostly anxiety. So today when I left to meet a freelance client this morning it wasn’t raining. After our meeting it still wasn’t raining. I decided to ride my bike to Company H as per usual. Less than halfway there… Continue reading Low…
I don’t expect a lot of sympathy or supportive words here. My blog views have dwindled considerably. I don’t know if that’s due to posting less (due to shit keeping me so busy over here or due to me commenting less on other people’s blogs). Either way I’m feeling a lack of support here (and… Continue reading Not a good morning…
Just when things were seemingly going well, life has some more curve balls to throw. Fuck. Yesterday, Mamoru’s brother called him in a huff. Apparently お父さん is seriously thinking of marrying his longtime Korean girlfriend. This in and of itself is not a bad thing but it carries with it a long history of hatred… Continue reading Drama and some good and bad…
My before pictures suck really. I’m sorry about that. Honestly, I had no desire to ever be photographed during the time I was fat. I’m sure you understand. Anyway, I’m pretty proud of my weight loss, so I thought I’d finally share it. To date I’ve lost 13kg (31lbs) and I’m still going strong. (Also,… Continue reading On the internet, we must be brave…
An Incomplete Girl in a Japanese World 