My eyes are puffy and red from crying last night. I’m supposed to be over the moon excited. We (Mamoru and I) are leaving for Cambodia today (our first trip together to an unknown place in years). Since we started trying to have a baby seriously and then started focusing on adoption, we decided to… Continue reading Mental health: poor…
It’s about three days left and then I’m out of here. To be honest I couldn’t be happier. Yet I’ve been fighting back tears all day to leave my niece who I love more than words. The past two days I did a little babysitting for my sister. In that time I played with my… Continue reading A lot of sad…
My cousin messaged me today to express her concern about the earthquake. Within that message was her telling me that she was pregnant and that she knows we had been trying and that she hopes the news wasn’t too hard to hear. See in 2016 when our fertility troubles had just started (that was when… Continue reading A pregnancy (not mine)…
I’ve been drinking so I hope this comes out as coherently as I planned. First of all forgive my absence yet again. Shingo is here again, and it’s been balls to the wall every day. Seriously, I haven’t had a second to breathe. Every day has been something, and I’m about to lose my damn… Continue reading “Don’t be afraid. Bad dreams are only dreams.”
Hello everyone! WordPress sent me a notification that I’ve received 200 followers. Holy shit! That’s pretty damn amazing is all I can say. From the bottom of my heart…thank you. What better way to celebrate than to offer those new followers a quick recap. If you’re new to this blog here’s a quick summary. For… Continue reading 200! A recap…
Yesterday was rough. Rough. Another adoption closed on the online NPO. Another child we applied to adopt given to another couple and not us. Meanwhile, literally everywhere I was was swarmed with families. You’d think it was a holiday but no. A plain old Monday. I saw a mama on her bicycle. One child in… Continue reading Babies, Japanese, and friendship…
I don’t even know where to begin. I’m physically and mentally exhausted. Every inch of my body hurts, and my heart aches as well. It’s been a weekend for the books. That’s for sure. I guess I’ll start with the physical pain. I did yoga yesterday for the first time in what seemed like decades. … Continue reading The weekend part 1: Saturday…
