Last night Demande called me. Fortunately, he called while Mamoru was on the phone with a coworker (which is super rare). At the beginning I told Demande that I needed to talk to him, and I didn’t say why only that it was important and it was something about me he needed to know. He… Continue reading Mamoru & Demande & Rei…
Hello! It’s almost my birthday which means it’s almost time to hate my life and everything about it. Let’s recap: Rei is moving to Korea in like 5 minutes. I’ll be 39 soon. WTF do I have to show for it? Not a great job, not great friends, not a great life. I’ve 3 MCs… Continue reading Fuck friends and birthdays…
My cousin messaged me today to express her concern about the earthquake. Within that message was her telling me that she was pregnant and that she knows we had been trying and that she hopes the news wasn’t too hard to hear. See in 2016 when our fertility troubles had just started (that was when… Continue reading A pregnancy (not mine)…
Perhaps you remember my last post where my mental health deteriorated to the point that I couldn’t find my keys which were in my bag the whole time. Yesterday was another for the books. Some point between changing my clothes in the bathroom and walking into the office. I lost my phone. Unfortunately, I had… Continue reading “3…2…1…fun!”
Yesterday was rough. Rough. Another adoption closed on the online NPO. Another child we applied to adopt given to another couple and not us. Meanwhile, literally everywhere I was was swarmed with families. You’d think it was a holiday but no. A plain old Monday. I saw a mama on her bicycle. One child in… Continue reading Babies, Japanese, and friendship…
I don’t even know where to begin. I’m physically and mentally exhausted. Every inch of my body hurts, and my heart aches as well. It’s been a weekend for the books. That’s for sure. I guess I’ll start with the physical pain. I did yoga yesterday for the first time in what seemed like decades. … Continue reading The weekend part 1: Saturday…
It’s Netflix Friday again. I’m waiting for “Santa Clarita Diet” to drop. It’s a heartwarming zomcom. Check it out if like me you like weird as fuck shit and Timothy Olyphant. Mmm… While I’m waiting for that, I’m also waiting for Small Lady’s breakfast to digest a bit before taking her out for a walk. … Continue reading Adoption, parenting, and general updates…
Hello! I hope everyone had a nice weekend. I am recovering from a 6AM wake up yesterday and a late night out and a 7:30AM wake up this morning. (If I was tired because of children I think I’d be less likely to complain, but unfortunately that’s not the case right now.) On Saturday Mamoru… Continue reading About the weekend and the MC…
Today it’s raining quite heavily. Although the weather forecast predicted such, I’m still surprised because the last three days have been so beautifully sunny and warm. I can hide inside most of the day, but I have a freelance appointment later. I’m not looking forward to it. I spent the better part of the ride… Continue reading Women and children first…
Well I completely mixed up White Day. I thought it was Thursday (today) and it turns out it was Wednesday (yesterday). As I’m sure you can easily guess, I didn’t get my White Day present of a baby, but that’s okay since I don’t believe in miracles anymore (after the loss of our miracle baby).… Continue reading This week so far…
